hey-to-the-HOO! well, im sorry if i didnt update yesterday. im preety much not in the mood. obviously! hmm. well, i here by updating bout it.

yesterday was the day we took our result. i was freaking nervous! no kidding. went to school with my two ohh-girlfriend, dee and eeaa. well, when we reached the gate. i asked them to step in the school together with our right foot. huhuhu. like the three musketeers! [im not sure of the spelling] so jyeah. went up to the hall. heart pumping like a machine gun. so, we had briefing and a talk by principal. and principal say, "we deserve this" heart pump super fast. nearly shed my tears. and yes! congrats to CALVIN, GRACE, RASHIDAH and ZAKI for clinching the top 4. and the result were issued out. when its my turn. i took a long time to seat on that chair. scary tauu! when i look at the remark stated REPEAT. i started crying badly. no kidding! i didnt even count how much i get. and went back to my seat. and cried for a min and ran out of the hall to call ibu. gosh! i cried more worst when i told ibu the result. ibu react so calm but i know she disappointed with my result. next one to call ish [♥]. [♥] was preety shocked bout it. hmm. lets just say, most people were shocked with my result. unbelievable! but what more can i do. i was given a choice to either retain or ite. hard decision!! super hard. so, principal say "retain!". ibu, ayah and kak say "retain!". beloved people say "retain!". aunt, uncle and couziie say "retain!". ouhk. its more than 98% of pupil say "retain!".

after so much of thinking and all. i kind of caught some of their words. second chance doesnt come again if you just throw it like that. probably this is my golden chance. use it wisely or it will gone forever and will never come back. so, after so much of thinking and crack my head and all. i've come to a decision to ... RETAIN and took a second try. well, retain ain't that bad after all. its more like revising through. as in more revision and more understanding. who knows i could be one of the top next year. insyaallah! amin. hehe.

but im super glad that everyone were there for me when im down. no kidding! they were there to hug me, cheer me up and all. big thank you and appreciate it alot. and to those who have giving advise to not stop striving thank you very much. special mention to ibu, couziie ana, syidah, dee, eeaa, shahlis, noh, kak nina, kak ika, abg maman and the list goes on. jyeah! im glad that you're there for me. big smile.

so, people! will you be there to at least guide me through? make me work hard and not waste everything. scold me if i daydreaming. pinch if i start to lose focus. smack me if i lose interest in study. and grab me to the library to study. will you? will you? ouhk. so kind of you! huhuhu.

to those who are disappointed with my result. im sorry. i was playful and not focus when i did my Nlevel. so, i deserve this! jyeah. thank you if you were to give me bad comments. much appreciated. but i wont do the same mistake. i want to work hard and i wont waste my second try. thats my promise to you! big smile.

i would like to end my post by saying. not every time in your life you will succeed. there will once you will fall. thats when you stop and think whats the best for you. and move on. big smile.

lets countdown to my SWEET SIXTEEN.

4 more days!!

NiiNii3. it wont be that bad after all