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its sunday today! and this mean, its my rest day after my 5 working days. hee. and just now, went to jp for a small advance birthday for my little bro, musa. he'll be turning 9 tomorrow. and time really flies fast. and i thought he's only 3. ^^ awww, my babyboy is big already. and i came to realise that im turning old real soon. alaaahai! ): anyways... we did a cake for him at the icing room. the cake turned out to be fugly, thanks to everyone. lolz. we were like stupidly having fun "conteng" the cake. hahk. whatever luhh, asal kan bahagia. ^^ had my lunch at pizza hut. yummy!! thanks for the treat obe and ayah. i had the best time with family [except ibu and kak] plus obe. damn! family aint complete. ): and ibu miss out the fun. alaaahai. i rindu ibu tauu!! ): haiz. and after that, head to aunty's house. and im home. nothing much luhh.

my lovely readers want to know about amnie luhh. awww~ saya suka!! hee. yesterday after work, i get to meet am tauu! sayang dia. (: hee. met him up for dinner. tuhh pun at first, am tak nak makan with me. i sedeh tauu! mintak kene blanjer baru nak makan. hee. at first, i want to eat kfc tauu. but it was freaking packed. kfc, packed. mac, packed. banquet, packed. perut kelaparan, semua packed. tsk. instead we ate at LJS. (: we ate the same food. awwww~ sweet gtuhh kan. =.= padahal am tak tauu nak makan aper. hee. finish eating, we sat there and had a chat. baby very naughty tauu. we kinda played "jealousy game". stupid game! but fun, to see how much we're jealous of. sumpah, i banyak kene rabak. tsk. then, we walk to pondoklove. as we walking, we had a lalala session. we kept singing the same O song again and again. i love it, baby!! (: sing for me again, please. and ohh, had amnie session at pondoklove. just so you know, pondoklove is where amnie always meet to have amnie session there. but eversince baby found a new place for us. pondoklove have been abandoned. )': most of our time, we sat there. and ohh, shocking thing happened yesterday. but let it be between us jerk kie. (:

i still remember the day we're officially break. and i still remember i had sleepless night thinking of am. leaving him all alone. its like a misery. and knowing he's no longer mine, i was freaking sad. its as thought lost in an open sea without any help. with am around, my days wont go bored. we'll be texting each other without fail. and knowing that everythings going to end at that moment. tears fall for every second. [its like you open a tap water.. jyeah!] and im freaking glad that now am's on my side. texting me without fail. but there's only one problem, love triangle. the love that was build among the 2girls and a boy. haiz. well, love is so free that eventually it end up having more than one. can't be blame. well, im not in a rush. neither am i hoping much from him. i dont want to put pressure on him. but as much as it hurts to be in this love triangle. im glad that he still treat me like his own girl. (: i love you baby. but the only thing is ... it aint fun having another girl. and not only me. i can be selfish at time. but, thats just me. ): im sorry, but i love you. i want to end this all. but i dont wish to leave you again. please baby, make the right decision. for myself, for you, for us. i miss amnie '09! )':